Hmmmm...What do i want???

Recently i have been thinking more and more about what i want from someone, i don't think as of now i want a boyfriend. Life is just perfect the way it is, and i wouldn't wanna jeopardize it. Im definitely not looking for one. I am enjoying dating, but then again i am sure if i grew to really like someone i would be happy to make them my boyfriend as i am not one to ignore my feelings. But when i say "liked someone", it would have to be a lot and i would have to be convinced i was making the right decision for my self.

Before i came to the united states i was scared of meeting someone that i would grow to like as i was worried that it would end in tears for me as i would of had to have left them behind, and it wouldn't have been fair to me or them as i didn't no for definite how long i was planning on staying in the states for. And now that i am here and am dating i am afraid of growing to really like someone again as there will also come a point where i will have to leave them behind. It may feel like it is but this is not my home and at some point i have to return to England. But then again i keep telling my self just let your self go and whatever happens happens, and when the time comes there will be a way around it there always is.

It amazes me how different of a character i am now, i can be who i want to be, and i am me from the start even if i am slightly clumsy and slacking on a lil (Ok maybe a lot) of common knowledge. Dating has also made me question my self as a person, as people have asked me questions about my self i have never had to answer before. Such as:

• What makes you different from every other girl.
• What is the craziest thing you have ever done
• what is the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to you

I learnt a lot from questions like this, and it took me on a trip down memory lane to try to find the answers .